Urgh today is not going so well. Woke up tired and down. Didn’t want to go to work. Feel so trapped in this life of work, work, work. I wish I had a job I wanted to get up for. I wish I could do something that I love and earn money doing it. But there is nothing I can do well enough to earn enough money to look after my family. So I’m trapped. There are no other jobs round here. It’s not the worst job in the world. I used to enjoy it. But there’s so much management interference and stress that I wish I could leave. I think it’s the feeling of being trapped with no choice that gets to me. Maybe with a choice I would choose to stay, but I don’t have that choice.
I feel tense, anxious and shaky. I’m snappy and grumpy and negative. I don’t want to be here.